During the years that I have been posting my blogs, many of you have been extremely supportive about the positive way in which I deal with my cerebral palsy, and my upbeat attitude towards life as a survivor of child abuse… I am incredibly grateful to all of you – you have helped to keep me strong, thank you.

Unusually, I skipped a post last week, since my mother died. It was her who abused me: physically emotionally, and throughout my adulthood- so you can imagine I have much to process.

Unfortunately, her crimes included further heinous acts, the details of which are too harrowing to write about here. Besides of which, I am working almightily hard to secure all the huge amount of positive work, I continue to do on myself.

I only started taking care of number one, three years ago- when the disability became more challenging.

Whilst her death has churned -up many unsettling emotions, I will NOT allow her energy to Infiltrate my good intentions: to try to help others, through shared experience.

Although the aftermath of her is exhausting and ugly, I remind myself again, that I am driven by my poor late brother, he incorrectly blamed himself for what she did. We were school children.

I will continue to share my own-made mental wellness ideas and journey you… although I stumbled last week: – I finally told the full story to my amazing childhood friends. I felt dreadful afterwards doing so! But they fast called and messaged me. I am so grateful to have them all.

Their love and support made me straighten my crown; knowing that I must repurpose my ire. I got the draft I have written, which was my brother’s title too, and sent it off to more agents. It is an introspective open account of what we endured, sharing with the future reader, how I navigated through the events, as the eldest, and child parent.

And I reminded myself that we always believed that it could help other people to awaken from trauma. To utilize our own inner strength and prevent the lost years- due to the numbness and muteness, inflicted by our perpetrators.’

We deserve to live a full and purposeful life, no matter what obstacles we all face…

There are only two types of humans, nothing else divides us, other than the good or bad spirit in our hearts.

I truly believe in positive collective energy, and the more healing experiences we can all share, the brighter and more peaceful our world will become.

Eat as well as you can in darker times, call your friends, they want to support you. And do not allow any bad vibes to hinder your personal growth.

I hope this helps you.

With SUNNY & BRAND-NEW INNER PEACE wishes to you all. Emma x